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The decision to work with you was easy and hard all at once. Your offer came at the perfect time, yet my instinct was to say no. I have become very adept at masking; making sure no one in my world knew what was in my heart of the turmoil in my mind. I knew if I said yes, it would all fall away, and that was terrifying.

But... I was ready to let someone in.

The personal impact on my life was exhaustion. I was very good at putting my clients and my business first. I was forgetting that I was very good at being Mom, and putting my son before even my business. And my self?

I had nothing left for her.

My goals were simple and massive. I wanted peace. I wanted to rest and feel rested. I wanted to feel productive but also “enough”. I wanted to remember who I was before I was a wife.

It had started to feel like my identity, the things I had thrown myself into, were being slowly ripped away from me... My marriage, my husband, the picture of my future, the change in parenting time and new struggles arising with my son, and finally an injury that had potential to affect my career.

I was terrified that when it all stripped away, I would be a shell of who I was, with no passion or fire or anything left to give the world.

At that point, I was in full protection mode, successfully hiding from everyone. I had started counselling, but had yet to open up to the process. Obviously, that wasn't going to work! I journal regularly, but had stopped as I found I had nothing to say.

My only reservation was that for the process to do anything, I was going to have to drop my wall. It was terrifying.

The process was exhausting, and intense! The part I didn't like had nothing to do with the process itself, but my personal reaction; looking at myself, into my own eyes. My wall has started to feel like a crucial part of my identity, and I was terrified to look into myself with the intent to break it down. The most helpful part was your patience with me, dealing with the emotions that were being continually pulled up.

It took a couple days before the idea of nonchalance, or simply being enough, became ok with me. I loved finding my affirmations, my statement of what I wanted, visualizing it all and feeling the feelings that came with it. It was a relief for me… To have my affirmations to rely on to pull me up and through when my old habits started to pop up and try to convince me otherwise. Even my moments of vague and general anxiety are easier to handle, simply being able to name it, then work through my affirmations to shut it down.

The most unexpected result was the steady improvement to my physical symptoms from my injury. Being able to feel confident, and steady on my feet at work again, helped my confidence and confirmed that I am indeed enough. I find I still tend to retreat, to hide when things are overwhelming, but I also drop my wall and let people in as opposed to faking my way through.

K. B. (Canada)